[JORDAN] wanna be loved.

[jordan marcus ballard]

"Sorry.." Jordan whispered, kissing him softly before hugging him close. He kissed his forehead

[kenneth ryleigh jefferson]

"Don't be sorry." He said quietly, kissing him gently. Kenneth wrapped his arms tightly around him, not daring to pull him into his lap. "I just don't wanna make you uncomfortable or anything. I know it's rough doing this with someone."

[jordan marcus ballard]

"It's alright.." He smiled faintly. "I trust you, Kenneth..." He kissed him tenderly. "I'll let you know if you go too far."

[kenneth ryleigh jefferson]

Kenneth shook his head, meeting the kiss gently. "I'm never going to push you. When you're ready, you'll let me know you're ready. And that's good enough for me." He said quietly. He knew people tended to say they were okay with things when they weren't if they thought they were going to let someone down.

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan stared down at their hands. "Okay.." He murmured, chewing on his lip. He kissed Kenneth again, leaning back against the sofa and pulling him a little closer. He wasn't sure how far he would manage before panicking, but he knew not trying would get him nowhere.

[kenneth ryleigh jefferson]

Kenneth kissed him softly, putting his other hand on the side of Jordan's thigh so he could lean a little closer. But he had no intentions of doing anything, of going any further than a lot of kissing. He smiled, squeezing his hand gently. "That doesn't mean now, Jordan.. You have all the time in the world." He said quietly.

[jordan marcus ballard]

"I know that.." Jordan's eyebrows furrowed faintly. He didn't want to come off as desperate.. He was far from it. His interest in what they were doing faltered, eyes passing over the medication discreetly again before he kissed the corner of Kenneth's mouth, and arm wrappin loosely over the back of his neck. He just wanted to feel comfortable lying so close, even pinned. Didn't want to panick when they did decide to take it further.

[kenneth ryleigh jefferson]

Kenneth gave him another gentle kiss, then leaned back on the sofa. He reached for his fudge, breaking off a little piece to eat it. He kept thinking Jordan deserved better, almost wishing he'd continued to let Jordan believe he was straight that day at his house. Then he wouldn't have these problems now. He heard Knox walk past, making his way to the fridge.

"We got Jordan's medicine since you were too busy fucking your boy toy." Kenneth said, putting another bit of fudge into his mouth.

"Smart move, seaweed brain. That's like sending you to get painkillers." Knox retorted.

"You don't have to be a prick. Fuck.."

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan frowned at Knox's words. "Sorry.." He mumbled, looking up. "You're the one that wanted to get me on pills." He knew he shouldn't be challenging him, knew it was better than having Knox have to shoot him up. But at the same time, just having that slim chance at sneaking enough to be numb again had him ready to try to do just that. The tempation was almost scary. He shifted his weight.

[kenneth ryleigh jefferson]

"No. I wanted you off of pills. So you can at least have a somewhat normal life. So you and your stupid boyfriend don't have to act like a couple of strangers all the damn time." Knox said, and Kenneth rolled his eyes.

"You have nothing to say about us, Knoxville. The only relationship you know is fucking your crew in your bunk. And your bassist when you're drunk as a German by noon." Kenneth retorted, knowing Knox would get him back for admitting what Knox done to him behind closed doors.

"At least Angel doesn't cry like a bitch." Knox said, shrugging as he walked to the back.

[jordan marcus ballard]

"Fuck you," Jordan muttered, setting his drink down as he stood. He glared at Angel when he passed, closing the bathroom door behind himself. He searched the cabinets in agitation and sighed when he found nothing as usual. Nobody had yet to slip up on pills. He went to the bathroom and washed his face before pulling his hair back, bangs framing his face as he undid his bandana.

[kenneth ryleigh jefferson]

Kenneth sighed, putting his half finished fudge back on the counter. He grabbed Jordan's medicine, and walked to Knoxville's bunk, throwing it at him so hard he was sure it left a bottle sized mark on his shoulder. "You're nothing but an arrogant prick." He muttered, climbing into his bunk. He pulled the pillow over his head, sure Knoxville would climb into his bunk and show him who was boss by the time the night was over.

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan slammed his palms on the counter, huffing in agitation. He finally opened the door, shouldering past Angel and scooping the puppy up before climbing up into his top bunk. He yanked the curtains closed, changing into pajama bottoms before curling up under his blanket. He sat up, grabbing his extra pillow and leaning down to throw it at Knox's head.

[kenneth ryleigh jefferson]

"I'm gonna fuck both of you up!" Knoxville screamed, and Kenneth just rolled his eyes. He slid out of his jeans, pulling his shirt over his head before he closed the curtain. He pulled his pillow over his head, slipping into a light sleep. He eventually let up on the pillow. He nearly screamed when he felt someone touch him, but he realized it was just Knoxville telling him to stop grinding his teeth. He curled up against the wall, falling asleep again.

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan fell asleep hugging the puppy close. He jumped when Kenneth cried out, rolling over warily to peer down at them with hesitance.