[Kenneth] Start a revolution

[knoxville script holt]

"I guess love really does make things grow then." He said quietly, reaching over to pet her head. He watched her, amazed something could be so small. But it only made him wonder how small she was before now, when they'd first found her. "It's not your fault. Never apologize for something that's not your fault, Jordan. You're gonna get better, okay? That's all that matters." He held out his arm to him.

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan shrugged a bit. Knox had sure made it seem like it was his fault before. He was so confused... Tears dripped down his cheeks, and he flinched a bit when Knox held his arm out. Swallowing, he traced his fingers slowly over it and chewed on the inside of his cheek. "I never wanted to get addicted... But I have been for awhile.. I was so afraid of you finding out.. Kenneth didn't even know until last week.."i

[knoxville script holt]

"I know. I was terrified of you guys finding out I had an addiction to sex. An addiction is always going to be there. You grew it like a bad seed. You just have to have control over it, and know when enough is enough. Life's hard, Jordan. I know that." He looked him over, chewing on his lip. "Kenneth has an addiction to pain killers. The doctors only give him pain killers when they know he's in horrible pain."

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan lowered his gaze. "I usually kept it pretty controlled...then it started getting up to six or seven pills a day.. And in the past week I've overdosed twice now.." He looked away in shame. He hoped that was Kenneth's only addiction. That what he'd been on a few nights ago meant nothing now.
Jordan's shoulders slumped some, neck aching from sleeping without a pillow. "If they re-medicate me..I'm gonna have to stop cold turkey, huh?"

[knoxville script holt]

Knox listened to him quietly, chewing on his lip. He shrugged at his question. "I don't think weaning you is going to help anything.." He mumbled, looking over at the blank tv screen. "If they medicate you, they're probably going to make someone give you your medicines so you won't over dose. We don't need you doing that again.."

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan nodded, suddenly glad this had happened on tour. Because if he'd been at home, he would have been screwed. "I guess...if it means I'm not hurting you or Kenny anymore.. I'll do anything.."

[knoxville script holt]

Knox looked over at him, running his hand over his leg before he fixed his zipper. "But we want you to get better the most. If you'll get better, we will too. We love you like you're family. You're all we really got." He said quietly.

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan bit his lip, searching his face. "You guys are all I do have.." He murmured quietly. "And I feel like I almost lost you both.." He sighed, shivering faintly and handing Knox the puppy so he could go get his blanket.

[knoxville script holt]

"Aw." He said, holding the little puppy close. He slowly petted her back, kissing the top of her head. "You're such a cute little thing, huh? No wonder they kept you. Did you guys bring her to the vet to see what she is?" He asked, looking over at Jordan.

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan wandered back wrapped in his blanket and sat down again. "No we haven't," He huffed with a shake of his head. He reached over and petted her gently, not sure sure about completely trusting Knox again. His mood had shifted so fast.

[knoxville script holt]

"She looks like she's gonna be pretty big. Not a bus doggy." He held her close, slowly running his fingers over her back. "But then again, I never thought small dogs were a good idea on a bus. I'd step on it all the time. So bigger dogs are better anyways. Even if they take up the entire bus."

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan smiled and nodded. "Yeah.. And little dogs have annoying barks." He pulled his feet up and yawned softly, wondering where the other two were.

[knoxville script holt]

"If you bring a chihuahua on this bus, you're riding on the roof." He said, gently petting the puppy's head. "But she can stay cause she's pretty and cute and not annoying." He sat her down next to him, gently rubbing her back.

[jordan marcus ballard]

Jordan gazed down at her quietly, and reached to rub at his aching jaw. He pet her again, then reached for the tv remote and handed it to Knox, curling up silently again. He felt..off. Uneasy and jittery.

[knoxville script holt]

Knox turned on the tv, looking over as Kenneth climbed back on the bus. He turned his head back to the tv, taking the box he was offered. Kenneth handed Jordan a box, then picked up the puppy, taking a seat in front of the tv with her.