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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 18:58:52 GMT -6
"No nonono." Kenneth reached for his hand quickly, pulling Jordan back. He wasn't raised no fool, that was for sure. He reached over, cupping his cheek as he kissed him softly, never thinking he would never have the chance to do this. He kissed him a moment longer before he pulled away. "Don't be sorry.. Please.." He breathed, slowly running his fingers over his cheek. "I fall a little harder for you every time I lay eyes on you.."
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Post by jordan marcus ballard on Jul 25, 2012 19:06:58 GMT -6
Jordan tensed at the touch, obediently sitting back down with another shaky breath, not wanting to look at him. And then Kenneth was kissing him and he panicked, pushing at his chest, terrified. But suddenly he didn't want to be afraid of what Kenneth was doing, trusted him just enough to allow it, and eased up, hesitantly kissing the slightest bit back. He swallowed as Kenneth pulled away, his stomach churning with the stressful event. "I...' Biting his lip, he searched his face with troubled eyes. And then he leaned in for another kiss.
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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 19:14:36 GMT -6
Kenneth almost figured Jordan would fight him when he kissed him, but it didn't stop him. He didn't want the boy to be afraid of him. He looked over at him, his heart pounding in his chest. He was madly in love with the boy, and he wouldn't say any different if Jordan asked. But he wasn't going to admit it willingly. It was still odd, telling someone you love them. He smiled as he leaned in for another kiss, and leaned in himself to close the gap. He kissed him softly, carefully stroking his cheek.
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Post by jordan marcus ballard on Jul 25, 2012 19:20:07 GMT -6
The hands still resting on Kenneth's chest were gentle, and he held him close as he met the kiss. After a moment he broke it, arms hesitantly wrapping around the other male, chin resting on his shoulder, and he sighed. "I needed to let that out.." He murmured sheepishly, heart racing where it was pressed to Kenneth's own chest. He felt sick with butterflies and fear all in one.
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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 19:25:10 GMT -6
Kenneth wrapped his arms around the boy's waist, hugging him close. He wouldn't fight him or argue, not if the boy wanted to be held. He was more than happy. "I'm glad you did.." He whispered, turning his head to kiss his forehead. Nothing seemed to matter anymore, not now that he knew. He felt like everything was right.
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Post by jordan marcus ballard on Jul 25, 2012 19:30:18 GMT -6
Jordan shifted his weight some, closed his eyes, and just listened to Kenneth's words, and every inhale of breath that he took. He could honestly say he had never, ever been happier. He'd been terrified of rejection, surprised Kenneth would care for a guy, let alone one who was finding it hard to stay relaxed at even the simplest hug. He wanted to get better, he did.. He wanted to learn to trust again. He wouldn't admit the only kiss he'd ever had was his mother saying goodnight when he was little, or the forceful ones of his uncle whenever the guy could get away with it. He reached to rub at an eye again.
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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 19:37:33 GMT -6
Kenneth held him as close as he could, looking him over for a moment before he finally loosened his grip. "I was scared of saying anything.. Like.. you'd just make fun of me for it or something.." He slowly ran his fingers over his back. He bit his lip before he drew in another breath. "I've.. really liked you for awhile now.."
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Post by jordan marcus ballard on Jul 25, 2012 19:45:47 GMT -6
Jordan tilted his head on Kenneth's shoulder some, and finally lifted it. "I never would have found it wrong.." He breathed. "You don't understand how close to a panic attack I am right now." He wrinkled his nose to prove he was teasing. "Have you...?"
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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 19:57:36 GMT -6
Kenneth nodded, swallowing the lump in his throat. He gave him a gentle kiss on the corner of her mouth. He slowly ran his hand over his back, looking at him with a faint smile. "Ever since I could remember I've liked you.. I mean, I never liked girls.. But something about you just..." He shrugged.
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Post by jordan marcus ballard on Jul 25, 2012 20:01:35 GMT -6
"I'm just that charming," He taunted with a faint smile, stunned by how much easier it suddenly felt to actually be himself, like Kenneth wasn't going to judge him. He chewed on a snakebite thoughtfully for a moment. "So ah...what's this all going to mean..?" He huffed, that uncertainty returning.
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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 20:05:44 GMT -6
Kenneth shrugged. He hadn't thought that far yet. "I dunno.. I know relationships make you uncomfortable.. Even if I'd never hurt you, I know it's rough.. Whatever you want to do, I'm fine with it. Just think it over, okay?" He kissed his forehead gently.
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Post by jordan marcus ballard on Jul 25, 2012 20:33:44 GMT -6
"Alright." He ran his hand slowly over Kenneth's chest, now understanding exactly what Kenneth had meant last night when he said that he cared and didn't want to lose him. He swallowed, realizing that five minutes longer alone in that tub might have never let this moment here happen.
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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 20:36:11 GMT -6
Kenneth slowly tipped his chin back, kissing him softly. He let him go after a second, too afraid he was going to hurt him. "Last night when you fell asleep, I held onto you as tightly as I could until I was too tired to stay up any more." He said quietly, gently running a hand through the boy's hair.
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Post by jordan marcus ballard on Jul 25, 2012 20:43:26 GMT -6
Jordan met the kiss again, his heartrate once more hitching as he did so. He swallowed when Kenneth spoke. "I'm sorry..." He whispered brokenly. "I shouldn't have done that..shouldn't have taken so much...." His jaw trembled. "I just..I wanted-...I don't know..."
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Post by kenneth ryleigh jefferson on Jul 25, 2012 20:46:04 GMT -6
"It's okay, Jordan.. You're alright now." He said quietly, hugging him close. He gently ran his fingers over his back, looking over at him. Everything seemed a lot simpler now that he didn't have to hide his sexuality from Jordan. But it didn't help much, either. Because he was the only one who knew.
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